Father’s Day has been very different for me for the past 6 years.  I lost my father 4 days before Christmas in 2005.  It was very sudden and tragic and it still haunts my thoughts to this day.

My dad and I had a wonderful relationship.  We talked all the time and we loved spending  time together.  He was my protector, my security blanket, my friend and a great dad.  I miss him terribly and long to simply have a conversation with him.  I miss his physical presence in my life and I dread reaching future milestones without him there.

With all that said, and with those feelings still rearing their heads from time to time, over the past almost 6 years I have been able to reach a place of acceptance.  It took me a long time to just accept the fact that my dad was no longer a physical part of my life.  I resented so many things and even felt jealous as I watched other people enjoy their dads.

But now that I’ve taken the time to process the deeper meaning of life and living, I see now that my father’s passing drew me closer to God and ultimately becoming a better person.  I no longer had my dad to lean on, so I had to seriously grow up for myself.

And speaking of growing up, I’ve learned not to always look at this situation so selfishly.  For so long, I cried, “How could you do this to me! How could you leave me!”  But I’ve come to realize, everything isn’t always about me.  We all have a purpose to fill on this earth, and I have had to come to grips with the fact that my dad obviously filled his, even if I think he left too soon.  He is now in a place where he feels no pain or suffering and he is just free.  I am learning to see the blessing in that and be content.

This is definitely still a process, but I am grateful to feel the healing take place.  Although I still have my moments, it feels good to be able to reminisce about him and revel in the good times we shared.  I’ve gotten to the point now where I enjoy the good memories more often than the bad.

And so today, I want to share an original song by some incredibly talented brothers.  They wrote this song when their father passed.  It touched my heart so much because it celebrates his new reality.  Focusing on that is the key to having peace instead of grief.

These days I try to tune into my dad’s loving and approving spirit as I excel and move forward in my life.  It feels good to know that I have an extra dose of love and protection in the spiritual world.

Enjoy this beautiful song and let it bring hope and healing to you if you are missing your dad as well.

Click on the song title below and then click on it a second time in the new page that pops up to hear the song:

Tell My Daddy by 3DL

If you would like to download this song for yourself, click here to access it .

My dad and I when I was about 13

My dad and his children all grown up

R.I.P. Bill

Peace, Love, & Memories,

~Alexis~